Shield
- Operator
- May 1
- 18 min read
Updated: 43 minutes ago
Good Speed
Speed and efficiency is a reflection of effort
I have always been good with strategy games.
I enjoy complexity and simplifying it to my style.
I learned to play chess when I was young,
and after I learned how the pieces moved,
a personal style was created,
even before I understood,
that was unusual for my age.
This is my first time looking back at what I was doing, since I never narrated.
I just simply did.
No memorizing.
I didn't memorize with chess either, since that is a false victory.
Beating opponents that never saw a memorization is just overpowering opponents who didn't memorize, a hollow victory.
The only improvement made in memorizing is memorizing better, with no creativity improved.
I call those type of victories Modern, meaning that is how my modern family got victories, by just repeating and placing claim with sheer willpower to not move, and you would have to force them off that claim.
It was the equivalent of king of the mountain, where the truth was obsolete.
Nothing is corrected, since mistakes don't exist in mems. It strengthens only memory of specific order of things and does not improve adapatation.
mem
Memorization
Mem is short for memorization, since I use that word a lot when describing the Modern Spotted family who displayed an easy way to win.
Just keep repeating until someone says okay.
Might is Right is mem style, with focus on format of words.
Spotted literally fought over a word and what that meant. It was an intersting.
"I can beat you down until you submit that I am right," is layman's term.
A more aggressive style of mem, eh not my style.
I retreated and just let them get the W, not that compettitve.
Um didn't want to improve their style of repeating,
the same format over and over again,
and becoming more aggressive the longer the fight went.
Shocking how aggressive they got with this style, since they are not a typical family.
It is persuasion from sheer will, and they used Shields, including the Blue to get a victory on me.
I know.
It was an unusal way to gain a victory, but I just had to play the board and not the player.
Rogue players are ones that will win at all cost without looking at the board.
In chess, a move can't be taken back, so let's see if I can see if I can untangle some moves made.
That Blue Shield assisted them and are now a part of the Spotted moves, and openly too.
No complaints. They are persuasive, and the Alpha is from North Philly, she knows what to say, which is vague details, but strong with sympathy and being a victim.
The Blue Shield;s name was used in an extortion attempt on my Birthday.
Can't make this up, the words are as said plainly. The last time she said it, it lead to harm to a family member, me.
Beta is the star witness to June 28, and she did the same thing, but this time recorded, since she mems.
Can't adjust to the new terrain of her words said seriously and can't take back.
Tue, Sep 10, 2024 at 6:30 PM - Wife's youngest daughter escalate and reports police on me, similar to June 28, because I declined a 10k.extortion
Memorizioation dulls the brain, and makes you do things tha worked previously.
Sigh. She obviously doesn't play chess like I did.
It is extortion in my opinion, since harm was done from the last time she reported the Blue Shield, where the reply to a 10k ask was explining what happened that day. She replied with, you are going to court and I refuse to read a long email about what happened and how that effected you.
If asked I will send the orignal transcripts to the Sheilds, but that is the extent of my cooperation.
When Trust is broken, yo udon't return to the one that broke that Trust.
Shields are a part of the Spotted, and that is ashame, since the Metronome reveals who they are.
They are not concerned or helpful to me.
Their words were recorder since their verbal words are too unreliable.
Tactic
Retreat without ever surrendering.
My style was misread with every victory the Spotted gained, which was to take all everything, financial, possessions, reputation, and even Trust from my own family.
I let them win. It is worth it not to fight as they do.
You can't win with mem battles without force. You have to shout or bring others in to decide who wins. It reinforces the wrong in life.
Two mems are two formats unwilling to budge. Too direct and so I went asymetrical.
I let them win so I could learn their mem persuasion, which varied from aggressive to very nice, with a touch of sincerity sprinkled here or there.
I absorbed these mems and gained a valuable skill.
I can read mems without even trying. I did't need to study and just experienced.
I got to see a lot of pitches of insincere persuasion, like the whole entire marriage.
It was batting practice for 5 years and after I escaped their space, I was awakened.
A challenge to a mem is almost always defended with,"That is not what I meant," followed with the same mem, over and over again. Even aplogies are mem, everything becomse a mem, and now your life is a mem. with new mes introduced when you need a change.
It is like an endless loop that is amusing to me. I avoid once I see this loop.
Never challenge a mem since it is a waste of time. That is the tactic I learned, it will onlyfrustrate you when you can't reason with someone.
Just know that person is an unreasonable person in your space.
Just leave them be and move on. The last thing you want to be good at mems, since they are false victory.
On occassion I tried to get into some of these arguements, and I learned, not worth arguing with Spotted since the rules are literally, who can outlast in the arguuement on who is right.
Might is Right.
My experience has made me a walking insincerity detector, fascinationg on who my radar picks up.
I don't judge, that would be misusing my special talent,
I just don't trust if I have to forgive.
One and done and move on.
Time is the most precious resource.
This is just my obersvation, those that waste time on others see life as one to fill with hours,days years, and try to fill it with things to do.
Memorization dulls the persepctive of what life is really about, um tyring to find something of value to spend your time. It still comes to original question we asked as a kid, which was,
"Who do I want to be?"
For those that forgot to ask that question, now has a Modern question, which is, "How can I fill my time and not be bored., I know, let's waste someone else's time so I don't feel as bad for wasting my own time....''' that sort of line of thought.
Just a paraphrase, but simply my obesrvation.
Desert Sun
Certainty holds pride
Spotted received reward from me and misread. I never trusted them.
It was amusing to see how dumb they thought I was. I just talked directly without being sincere. I can't help it if they never got to know me, which is the most amusing part.
I didn't hide who I was, simply adapted to the envirionment that they didn't want to know.
Communicating with mem is hollow since the inention is obvous for some sort of reward, be it self congratulation or material things and every thing in between.
The reward for me was immaterial. I learned about them and myself. A contrast that I couldn't have asked for a more opposite in form than Alpha Certain. I was Omega uncertain, but certain of myself grew each day.
She followed a script, which is too much control to allow that maybe I knew what you were doing.
I play the board, not the player, and see where it leads, like the Metronome.
They were rogue players that misread that my giving was just what I said, because I wanted to show I still loved them and no hard feelings for that thing they did.
Forgiveness is not forgetting.
If you forget what you forgave, then it will happen again.
It would shock them to know that I know exactly what they did without knowing the details.
I know.
I survived all those attempts because I knew, and still I forgave.
To scream to the top of my lungs and say believe me is what the Title would protect them from.
I am saying, I know, and I will explain what I know, but without harming my Spotted family.
Alpha Certain does not need to feel shame or embarassment for what she did, because she has her memorizations to say, I did not do those things.
Pity
To begin enjoyment of being pitied
will only end with becoming pitiful
"I didin't know and that is not what I meant."
To wipe your actions that easily is too forgiving.
You can do anything and say that, and win, but the experience remains.
An unforgivable act is one that is branded on your whole entire being, that will remain for the rest of your life, carried with all the rest of the baggage, because you will continue to outrun a trail of destruction of your past.
Alpha's first husband went bankrupty, moved back to his partents house, and his life was destroyed.
He has a daughter that revealed a viscous streak on September 10 with me. He survived a destructive Tempest, which Alpha Certain brings to those that are no longer any use to her.
I know her and I feel absolute pity for that kind of existence, to just keep taking and not caring how you take it.
My wife chose the ultimate take and it is now inside her as one of those the few who cross the Rubicon of doing harm. Fourt times she tried, and aftter, still at it.
There is no stopping her with the next mark she finds, since the only certainy I know, she needs to take money from someone, preferably with good credit.
Herfirst husgand and I share the sme fate, our credit got tanked while theconsequence for Alpha, new starrt.
I had 282k lifei insurance policy bounty that she made sure I signe for. I wanted the free employer choice.
When asked why she replied, "You can never have too much insurance."
um...I beg to differ. I think I had too much insurance to be safe around her.
I pity her, to view another human as if they are worth a dollar amount. And those involved, I was shocked, excpet the one that said,, "I was raised in the Ghetto, no matter how much success I have, it will never leave me."
I nodded and thought,, why on earth did you tell me you think you are lioness, when I know you are spotted, and proud of it. Unless it was to gain my Trust, which was never given. I was just being myself and watching as your pattern changed in showing intersest in me, the first time ever.
A break in Pattern is always noticed by me.
That is what spotted means, any break in pattern shows something is important, and usually insincerity.
GrandMaster
Test Self Best
Best is Test
Self Test Best
Playing against someone who matches your skill or better, is how one learns, not just a validation through others.
I had to learn from being defeated with these type of memorized openings a few times, and I always asked for another game after.
Fool me once, shame on me, but fool me again....um I will figure it out when I see it again....eventually.
I kept playing until I got it right, as long as the other was willing to play.
The opening move from Red players was a bold move, of which they went all in, and this was their fourth attempt. Don't need to get into the details since we are focusing on the board.
June 6 23 was an open move where all the pieces were in place for one thing, lots of moving pieces.
After I was able to return to a place where she was not in my space, I immediatly standardized the moves on the board.
The Metronome is the only way I communicated.
Emails.
I changed the terrain
since I saw a need for transparency
so the game is played fair
instead of stories in the air.
Their Words were held,
embedded within their email,
within the actual digital document.
I did this before June 6,
which has a June 4 email
that is a the 3rd attempt
to a diagnosis which was denied by a Therapist.
She would most likely would remember my wife's odd behavior.
I started the game of Metronome since I was seeing a pattern of opposition.
It just took 2 years to checkmate them
I keep focus and try my best, and the board isn't even created to trap them, they trapped themselves with September 10, and all the pattersn shows in years worth of their words.
The Metronome is the games I played with Spotted who don't play fair.
They say one thing and do another.
I just kept track of the moves played to ensure no more technicals to win.
Truth
Truth is its own reward
Repetition against memorization is the natural way to defeat, getting used to what they do.
Spotted are unavble to adapt, and repeat the same thing over and over again. If you ask them a question, they will say the same vague thing., with only details they are confident won't catch them in a lie.
I never try to memorize back.
That would be returning against their strength, which is format.
I can see beyond format and look at the indirect hand given.
Spots are rarely obvious, direct and rely on the benefit of the doubt.
It took a while to learn, from the consequences of defeat, but I finally could see beyond the appearnaces and see the Spots. I just needed to make sure all communication with them were dated and timed.
And after, I countered with a style that was unconventional.
I just went unspotted, sincere, too stressful to be careful with words, and just say what I mean.
The first 10 moves in chess are where my focus was the strongest, since a lots of traps to shorten the game for an easy victory.
The Opening Gambit was a bold first move, that I just kept doing my best with a reply, that would counter the move and not be overwhelmed. It was an all out.
Alpha Certain eventually took ownership of my Name, on her fourth attempt, on that night.
The game kicked in before that with patterns are all over the board.
Insincere, unconerned, and untrustworthy wife is what Metrnome shows of Alpha Certain.
Spots are clearly marked.
Look at the board backwards, now that we have establish a baseline of the 3 opponent.
Alpha is focused on money, 282k is too big a prized for the baseline established of my wife.
Beta is the start witness to June 18, and also June 6, phone records show she texted Alpha before she testxted me as I drove out of the parking lot. I didn't see her that day.
Delta is June 4 23 email, explaining the escalating violence towrdsa me, and never mentioned in the Metronome, though she read that email witha reply of June 6 23.
Those are hte players against me. Omega.
I sacrificed all the material pieces for an immaterial reward,
a reason to write, since I had time to be able to explain it to myself, of what I had just done.
I survived the other gambits with luck and doing my best, always being aware of who I was now playing, an opposition.
I got past that Gambit Opening,
where memorization thrived,
and pushed it gently aside,
and with the kindest counter,
I kept trying to get help and help in return.
It was comical how complicated it was to return simple things,
which was the pattern of the help
of the singaturee of Title holder
based on concern which shows blatant unconcern.
I just waited and kept asking, since I learned patience from the Modern Family.
I don't mind complexity, as long as I am the one to dictate the tempo, which was not how this match played out.
My best style was checked.
I had to adapt since I was not trying to get back
Why play the Style of Spotted insincere?
Unspotted is staying to my game,which is no game.
I will do as I say, my game style, which confused them with their judgement that I was dumb.
Unpredictability to their style.
I was just moving on and doing my best, as promiesed on Dec 28th
I learned to play defense instead, by putting my pieces in the best position from the chaotic opening, and then things started to unravel in the middle game, with just giving my best.
I played Modern like a friend, because she still was, despite her obvious no way, no how.
Her style, "I want to humilate you by acting nice for plausablity."
Chaos ensued with a staff and shield.
The Queen and Knight.
I just played the match straight and the daughter revealed herself in the end game, a move that seemed familiar to the last match played.
June 28th.
They called for a technical and the judges ruled in their favor.
This time though, the technical calls into question the previous 2 technicals.
Unconventional strategy, I admit, but a solution to rogue players that don'e play by the rules.
I remained an honest opponent, since this was us during the entire marriage.
Our two styles were develeoped from these matches together for 5 yeras.
in Layman's terms, you are seeing the marriage, which is amusing to me, since all I promised was to give her weekly payemsnts
Modern created her own Trojan Horse of continuing to try to gain Trust by saying things she didn't follow through..
Those that lie in trivial matters should not be trusted with important matters, like her diagnosis she attempted to place prioor, to a licensed therapist of her own choosing.
Between Feb 13, 23 to May 29, 23 - Licensed therapist's opinion of wife after 2 attempts on imposing a certainty of my mental state, "It seems likes you are transferring your anxiety on your husband."
Staff
Speed and efficiency is a reflection of effort
After I survived the start, I was able to relax with the game. Balance was found after July 4th weekend.
That is where the game unfolded for me.
The middle is where the real game is, not the beginning, and not even the ending. The game is still on with a threat from the one who felt I was a threat.
I didn't care if I won or lost, just wanted to do my best, which was practicing my mind against the board, not the players.
Most of the players lost because the board got too complicated after my opening gambit.
I liked to use Queen's Gambit, Ruey Lopez was the name, I think...not sure.
I loved that opening because it brought out my Queen if the pawn in front was taken.
A sacrifice I was always willing to give without an ask of return.
Once She moved out, Chaos reigned supreme.
The game became complicated, which was what I liked.
Almost every time I would keep attacking once She was unleashed.
I wanted to push the limit of my style, which was always to attack and dictate the tempo.
I was not a settler, a builder of great walls of defense...too far ahead with moves.
Long game.
Metronome is one of the few walls I ever had to build, but I was playing against an aggresive player who was risking it all, since she had my Name with her Title she signed.
Never played against someone like this.
Reckless and didn't care what cost it did to her reputaion, with security in the role of concerned wife.
Shield
Endure and revealed is Resolve
The Knight was my second favorite piece since it was the most unpredictable.
The knights would be piece I would rarely sacrifice, since they were just as chaotic as the Queen.
I would be constantly moving that piece, as it was being pushed around, being bullied easily.
The only time I wasn't attacking was to keep enduring the attacks on the Knight.
I refused to sacrfice or trade unless it would lead to the win.
My Knights were used in the end game, also it made the opponent constantly shifting their board and not focusing on defending against the Queen.
The Queen in the analogy is my writing.
Art.
Those emails I sent have some good writing in there.
That was what I was focused on, trying to improve my writing so I could be ready to explain just how obvious the game was played on June 28th.
I wasn't out to prove anything, just simply replying and sometimes a philosphical thought here or there.
A Spotted Modern was my first audience.
The combination of the Queen and Knight was how I won.
My childhood friend showed no interest in playing with me after a few of these middle games.
Too complicated.
We went back to vidoe game where he won.
Mashing buttons was not my thing.
Too much like memorizing.
My style is good speed and good luck.
Staff and Shield.
Everything in Between
The middle is the ideal place to put best effort,
it doesn't have any continuity issues with the start or end
I would later read the history of the players in the library. Their perspective on the game revealed their style of play.
It was interesting to see how they won, which was their philosophy.
Some were technical, others were unpredictable, some went for lowest risk, others went balls to the wall, and then there were the rogue players who played against the player.
These styles of play are within every person I have met, whether artist or not.
To me, everyone is an artist and the work they put into themselves show what works or not, for me.
I learn from the encounters and experiences.
You can learn from everyone, without having to ask. If you share space with someone, there is learning that can be done.
My match in the Metronome, with Certain, was the rogue player who played against me.
I didn't mind, until, she broke fair play in the June, along with her daughter, who is not that great a player.
She revealed her style on Tue, Sep 10, 2024 at 6:30 PM.
They didn't realize that the game was being clocked and recorded for further review if they tried their opening moves I had to face twice.
Memorization of the same move, that is now a pattern of fair play broken.
Doesn't bother me, since the wall of defense will say, um...they did what?
They are the only witnesses that was beleived by two outside parties.
Can't make the same mistake as the first 10 moves of checkmate of Trust.
Got defeated and getting back was hard.
GrandMaster
Effortless is learned from repetition of best effort
I ecnountered my first grandmaster of the modern and it was not what I would have thought.
He was a guy on the floor who bragged he was ranked in NJ.
I said cool.
I haven't played in a while, why not play a round?
He smirked and said sure.
I forget his name, but he had a goat tee and he was short.
He was a nice guy, but with chess, he was certain he was going to win.
I am sure he got a challenged when he announced he was top player in his state.
I was uncertain and just wanted to see what it was like to play against state level ranked and not just small pond of neighborhood, a friend who I played tag, ghost in the graveyard, and Street Fighter II on Nintendo.
He started agrressively wanting to get checkmate with a fork, so I countered naturally, to not get checkmated in 10 moves.
He wanted the validation he was still the best in the room, and it didn't go his way with me.
I just played the game and within half an hour, I said, "Checkmate."
This modern grandmaster pride was shamed, since he didn't ask for a rematch, which I would have done.
You need at least best out of 3 to see who won.
I was puzzled why he didn't want to play me seriously.
I think he was scared after seeing my middle game.
I brought the Queen out and just went wild with the Knight to devastating effect.
I left him out of breath because the middle game was unlike he had ever faced.
I never allowed him to dictate the tempo, continued to attack, and just smothered any will for him to win.
I shook his hand, which is the way to end games, but he never mentioned chess around me again.
Modern just met Classical, and this was even before I was painting.
