Spotted Belief III
- Operator
- May 13
- 15 min read
Updated: 7 hours ago
Spotted
Those that disregard Truth can only mimic sincerity
Desert Sun
Certainty holds pride, uncertainty allows humility
Time is the most precious resource.
It is also relative, depending on the space and gravity pull that exists, from Self and Others.
Life is an interface, with space that is shared.
Marriage is the interface where the art of giving, taking, and compromise is practiced daily. School never ends, no matter wha course you were enrolled in.
Marriage is the First Family One chooses.
Family is the first place One experiences community.
It is the first soil where beliefs are found.
No matter the environment, that field is where a first seed is planted
Family bonds hold or break from this first chance soil.
Loyalty to family is shown through actions,
where weakness or strength are forged,
reflecting your loyalty to Others.
It starts from your actions towards One's own.
Without family, then you are a family of One.
You have to rely on Self.
My First Marriage, one where my wife refused to let me leave, was the best education.
It wasn't the one I chose, but in life, you sometimes cannot choose the course.
Marraige to me was like going to Church, a duty where it was 24/7, until the last year.
I embraced the role that was given to me.
It taught me, Time is the most precious resource.
I had to learn how to get strong enough to leave her orbit, of imposing with threats and guilt, and constant engagement. I wansn't brave enough to say no to her the first time I repeatedly told her no, I do not want to be with you. You are not someone I want to be with. 7 years later I was able to say no in a way she understood, which was to say awsy fom her.
Alpha Certain was an amzing teacher. I had to remain a pupil in the marraige, since she would not allow space to remain Uncertain of anything.
Certainty holds pride, blind from seeing, school never ends.
We imporve in anything we do, no matter what, and what she learned was make the course harder to a pupil that seems to be thriving. I did what was asked, did my best, and did not complain.
In return for her 7 year couse she gave, I learned courage.
Courage was tested recently, on May 18, 2025, when I told a threatening stranger no to his demand for my phone. I told him no three times, unwilling to be afraid that he meant his threats.
I know.
He said with frustration, in an affluent neighborhood in King of Purssia, "If this wasn't a public place, I would kick the shit out of you...." The rest I didn't listen to.
I understood, the rest will be all the same to make me scared.
I just looked at him and thought, what are the chances a stranger would ask to use my phone an hour after I just changed my phone number?
My three denials to his ask told him I was unwilling to do what he asked for.
His initial excuse for asking for my phone was he needed to text his girlfirend, since he forgot his phone. The same reason Alpha asked for my phone, to text Beta that she was home. We were just ouside her home, and she didn't know my new phone number.
My First Marraige taught me to say no to threats and guilt, no matter the consequences, you have to say no, or they will do worse.
They will threaten or guilt you for the rest of your things, and when that is done....yup...with this Spotted Family I married into....I understand.
Still have to say no, no matter what.
A yes to a threat means it worked. Boudary lines have now encroched into your Time. They will only expand since that was a shortcut to getting their things. Not reason, or rearned, they created a deserve with threat.
Those that take shortcuts too ofetn, will no longer take the paths that have none. They will only now take shortucts until they find a reward for not taking it, which is usually consequences.
Time is the most precious resource.
Don't give it away, even from a known threat.
Never give in, pay the cost of saying No, and it iwll make you better person.
Guilt and threats go hand in hand, that is what they use, the Ancient Way of holding a hostage to your Time.
A threatening person shows signs they do not respect other's space and impose through brute force.
That is whatI learned under the 7 years under the Desert Sun.
A threatening person is uncivilized, and has used it to get their way, without to resepect to Truth.
They take with Might, ownership of things they feel entitled to.
Spotted follow the Ancient Ways, before rule of Law.
No matter how nice, or polite, that is their True Self. Te Hyenas are a metaphor of how I see their True Self. It is not to mock or dehumanize them, but a reminder to myself, do not give them the benefit of the doubt. I have a tendency to forget and try to see the beauty in all. The Spotted are beautiful in the sense, they have a style that usually usally don't trhive in the modern.
They have done well for themselves, and I hold no grudge. I only have to write this since Beta didn't realize that she just tried to extort me, and I felt that they would ocntinue to expand that boundary line. It was just easier to just tell the Truth and just see where the dice may fall.
I underatnd the risk. That is what courage is. Understanding that you may not win, and my victory is remaining unhamred by them. They mean to do harm to me. I understand.
"To be the Best I can be,"
That is s all that I am.
Threat
"I will make you pay for denying my ask"
The gravity space I experienced was one of constant giving, a Black Hole of my Time. It was not a waste, since I was learning how to do things that were not what. I also learned the signs of how Others impose their Time on me.
Experience is the greatest teacher.
7 years under the Desert Sun's gravity pull, with of my Time given faster each year, and I learned to navigate through these forces I was experiencing.
My first unofficial marriage, with Linda, was the oppsoite. She loved me and never imposed. It took her 5 years to ask me to get a job, and I was immature with my response.
I broke up with her.
My first gravity pull was a gentle Sun, that was warm and loving, and I was able to compare against my next ance orbit pull.
My wife was not normal, and her obvious disinterest in giving,was her tell. For her,, it was simply a role to gain as much as she could and then move on, like her first marriage. A husband who I feel sorry for, I am sure he has a story to tell about his treatement. I feel sorry since Beta, the one who tried to extort on September 10, 2024, is his daughter. I can't imagine what that would be like, to have to be a vitctim of a family blood that is capable of doing that.
Money is all they focus on, without concern to the victims they take from, with only sweet honey and if no,, then the theat is revealed. Beta just didn't take my advice when I told her not to reply.
I learned from my 7 time in the Desert Sun, and I know who they are.
Even the June 24th email my wife sent, the Dear John letter, and the reason was she couldn't affort to pay for storage for a free email account. Which amused me to no end. I was honestly joyful when I saw it.
I would no longer need to reply, and my marriage vows stayed intact. I was a good husband to her.
The June 23rd email I sent, when I notived her that I made the last weekly payment, for 6 months, as promised on Decemberm 28, 2023, the day my bankruptcy of 125k was finalized, is a ltter meant to be read after she sent her Dear John.
I knew she was going to dine and dash, and I was fine with it. I just left her my words to say, I forgive you and love you, always. You can do anything to me, outside of the extreme taking of my Time for the silence that would benefit you.
I know the Spotted since I spent so much Time with them. I learned what insincerity looks like.
She was Spotted before I married her, or tried multiple times to break up with her. I never forget things that matter, and her words she said, after she destroyed my things and pounded on the door to demand to see me, after I continued to ask her to allow me space was this.
"If you think you can leave me, you have no idea what I can do," she said with a clenched fist.
With a soft whisper after, "you don't know them." She must have been referencing her pack, and I Spotted them to the best of my abilities.
It would take 7 years to be able to
Spotted simply means insincere and untrustworthy of my Time. My family that I married are the extreme versions of that meaning.
Unpostted means sincere and trustworthy of my Time. My family that raised me are the extreme versions of that meaning.
The images of Hyenas are how I see my Spotted and those involved with trying to take my Time, in the extreme meaning. To impose your Time on someone is extreme, and I had to learn how to avoid them at the end of the marriage.
Those that take will improve on taking. Those that give will improve on giving. There will come a breaking point if the dynamic is singular, and I was the first to shift the relationship.
The story in Limits of Faith reveal the Rubicon that Cleopatra crossed when she was asking me indirectly to be a beggar.
Entitlement weakens the character, Gratitude strengthens. The week after my wife returned from an all inclusive vacation, with only her family, and retruned to demand why I didn't call her enough, that was the breaking point.
Her gravity pull was now demanding All my Time without any expectation for me to keep my Time.
It was only the last year that I started leaving the orbit of the Black Hole because I found out what I wanted to do with that most precious resource of mine, Time.
My training was over and I learned how to avoid these Black Holes. That is what my 7 years und the Spotted Desert Sun taught me.
Allpha and I are opposites in almost every way, including what value one's own and others Time.
Her value is simple.
Rewards.
Her Prime Rule is to make beliefs that gain rewards for herself only. That is it, no matter the cost to others, her One Prime Rule will overide. The moments where it seems like she is giving is just quota.
Her focus is mostly on financial and to silence any that challenge her beliefs.
She married the exact opposite of her philosophy.
I was a gurantee to her rewards.
I rarely asked her for anything, and was very aware of who she is.
I adapt to my surroundings.
Uncertainty allows humilty, which was tested.
It was the best education I could have asked for, which was not asked, but forced on me, which I accepted.
Certain holds pride, certain of everything, and likes to humiliate those that dare challenger her beliefs she makes. They rarely are based on Truth, since it can't be proven unless you really put in the effort.
I was going to go that route, but my writing sufferes. All I will say is that I have data from phone logs, credit card bills, and their words to say I could prove it, but it is too boring. I would rather just send it to the Names she used and be done with it.
Myu wife causes harm, and that is the Truth that is rewarding enough to test the Shields that should be questioning her and her Spotted family and friends. Just ask a few simple questions, with details required against my writings, and you will see.
Without threats they will become meek.
That was the Test, a battle of wills on Self, and I had learn from my failures, until I found the best version of Self that no longer failed to tell the Truth. The threat of what they could do, which is still very present, I am in the circle with the pack.
I just move and keep trying to be a better writer until One can see, I speak the Truth. With no passion or hatred towards that want to do the most harm.
The Silences that remains silent.
I didn't want to be a writer.
I had to be a writer
or else I could not keep Self.
I am not willing to give up on the hope that my Best will be rewarded with hope that the Spotted will stop their pursuit of making the world less. The Pyhhric circle is a dance of idealism and the worse type of cynism. They don't have faith in the best in people, to allow them to do as they please.
Certain is very territorial and her expansion has spread to the suburbs of Philadelphia, when she is an Alpha from the North of that great city.
She makes things worse for everyone that follows her make belief, and uses benefit of the doubt cover her rewards she gains. Silence spreads and it got the Shields of my own community where I used to reside.
Family
Family is everything, no matter what, stay loyal to one's own.
I will always love him but keep my distance from him, since the Spotted will use him to let down my guard and trust the ones that raise him.
I saw the abuse in front of me and I was shocked.
I did something.
I told her not to do that.
Alpha Certain then said, “What? I didn’t mean to do that.”
This is simiilar to what Delta, the daughter of June 4 did. His mother assaulted me with a door, with protection to say it was not intentional.
Delta was given the same Title as me, so there is a pattern to use the Shield of the community to indirectly harm their own family members.
The Spotted have a pattern of indirect abuse, with the knowledge they can say it was a misunderstanding.
That is why they prefer verbal words to hide what they do to other family members, or ones that need to stay in line to the an image of a perfect family.
There was no misunderstanding with a grandmother assaulting her grandson.
Alpha Certain showed no concern as his hands covered his head, rocking back and forth in pain.
It was sad to see that he was not aware he was being abused, since he continues to visit Alpha Certain, and raised by a mother who attacks another family member for listening to her wishes of never speaking to her or her sons.
I spoke up for titled "Eli" to not allow this to be normalized, in the brief moment I had.
I needed him to hear another family member defend an act that he should never have to experience, of a knee blasting his head against a door, and unconcern shown after.
If I went over to help him, Alpha Certain would then attack me for breaking the rule that his mother gave, to not speak or have any contact with him.
I could not even ask him if he was okay.
All I could do was challenge her that I saw what she did, and I would later speak the Truth of what I saw.
I saw a wife who no longer sees human life as one that she had to respect.
Her Prime Rule is only rewards.
Image and money.
No one is safe if you can attack your own family member.
Those are the bonds that reveal who you are outside of family.
I was in danger since the show of brute violence was an escalation. But I had to speak up for him by speaking the Truth.
I told her, “Do not do that to your grandson. You know what you just did.”
I needed him to hear that I spoke on his behalf, to maybe make him aware, this was not normal.
Faith
Truth is its own reward
Alpha simply smiled and then walked out the door to go to Church, which would be the first time she was going without me.
In the entire marraige, this would only be her third time going in 5 years.
No Name is safe from her and only tarnishes the ones she uses.
She explained this to the Shiled, that she is a woman of Faith.
She never told me the story of how she knew I left when I did.
In the Pyhhric Dance I can see the call logs and see who alterted her, though rmember, they do things indirect. Either way she wasn't there when I left, so what was the distress?
Their story will be filled with holes since I place the time I left. When Beta texted me at 7:20 PM.
They would know more about it than me
How did Alpha know, and then I got two texts of concern, from the two that was late 20 minutes to a North Philly parking lot. Both cars. The chances that are nil. They were each other's alibis most likely.
Alpha Certain will use any name for gains, even reputable names that reveal, they are Spotted.
282k life insurance policy is the only detail she repeats to say, that was not the reason for June 6, and that is it.
She avoids any other detail about that day, which is a pattern of ommission that shows lack of concern for a husband.
Questions she avoids answering because of the Title she signes, which is falsified plainly. 1 word of mine. That is it.
Phone records reveal the coordination, and each one of those that texted after 7:20 PM know more than me, becuase I was simply driving out of the parking lot, with my car with dirt on the front and back windshielt.
The man dumping my car which was moved, looked very similar to the man from North Philly, in an abandoned parking l was given from Alpha's mother, a devout woman of Faith.
Both cars were late, which is impossible, since they knew this neighborhood asked for me to wait by myself.
But that story is for another time, this page is to show um I guess reasonable doubt to what surrounded that Title date of June 6.
The police were called so I could escape from having the Spotted family get their hands on me alone. The man said on 5/18/2025, "If this wasn't a public place I would beat the shit out of you." That was for a no to hand over my phone, an hour after I changed my phone number.
They are out there and they are getting more open, since its been two years.
I just say, I will do my best to write the best vefrisoin of Truth. That means not fearing what they will do and jsut accept that it is easier to tthink this is a story and not Truth.
Truth is often unpleasant, as often untrue as pleasant.
The Spotted are very pleasnat when you meet them.
White Sand
Hope brought into the world is never a waste.
All these events happend while Alpha Certain's sister was dying and later passed away.
Another Name that she will use to hide her true intent.
Anothe Shield of sympathy to hide the Truth.
She dishonors her family, no name is safe to act as a Shield for her rewards.
There was an app you could leave messages to one another. She would leave messages to her sister back and forth.
Alpha Certain would often say, "I can't listen to all her messages. so I just listen to a few of her words and delete them."
I knew my wife didn't read my emails since I knew how much effort she gives to family members.
I was writing for myuself to prove that I can do my best against someone like her.
She just thought I was a loser, an Omega who seemed to keep doing the same thing, which was remain forgiving and kind to her, which made her go the opposite.
One is supposed to judge thmselves, unless they are no longer civilized, and dare anyone to stop her.
She had no self control when I met her, but she only got worse in the marriage.
Names that portected her are tarnished, as mine was. No Name is safe for her to sacrifice her pusuit of an empty void of the material.
The Spotted family only know how to harm.
Roll of the Dice
Make decisions until they hold no fear
If I could tell the Spotted family my thoughts, a direct communication, they would be surprised.
You are harming yourself by letting these experiences become a part of you.
Certain that you can control others takes away from self reflection.
The actions made forced me to build a Shield that shows plainly who you are.
That is your legacy that you take, no matter if no one believes me.
I know and I speak the Truth.
The pain you bring, will only grow worse, since you cannot see that you are making yourself inhuman.
Hope can only go so far, and though I have forgiven, I see no hope for you.
The anger and hatred towards me ais a reflection of yoruself, a misplacement of what you are, the Wilderness that was sustained by avoiding correcting.
It is never too late to change, but you have to see your mistakess or else, you will go further down the road where there is no point of return. I honestly feel you have reached that point, Lost and only can make things worse for anyone in your space.
One can lose faith in themselves and become hollow. That is how I see you, hollow of any faith, and rely on the faith in others to sustain your emptiness.
For me to tell the Truth shows I care, even if you continue to do more harm to me.
I forgave the unforgivable, and that should make you think, what exactly does that mean if you don't think you did wrong,.
Unforgivable acts no longer concern you, that is what is discovered about yourself.
Words in the Metronome hold your Truth and that is you, and it is pretty sad to see how little you feel, since that is how you feel about yourself.
A Void of Nothing.
good luck & good speed
started 5/8
Ended 5/18