Pyrrhic Dance IV
- Operator
- May 14
- 25 min read
Updated: 1 day ago
Excel
Be the Best I can Be
The Wilderness grows into the Gardens because the benefit of the doubt is given.
The Truth is often unpleasant, as often untrue as the pleasant.
That is what allows the uncivilized to enter into the Gardens of the community, doubt that only pleasant things are the Truth.
You have to know the ending before you can know the beginning.
A chapter closed will make sense of what was witihin the Whole.
Go backwards and see the patterns, instead of looking at one moment, which can be dismissed as a misunderstanding.
I had a co-worker who rertunred after a week off.
I asked her what she did.
She looked at me with sadness and said, "My Mother passed away."
I was silent as I let her feel those words she spoke.
I didn't offer her condelences because I knew she wanted to say more.
She said,, "I miss her so much, Mark. Especially the long drives to work and back, she kept me company."
I saw she needed comfort. I said,
"I understand in this moment you feel she is gone. She still remains, in the words you spoke to her while she was alive."
"A chapter closed means those words have more meaning. They can no longer be created. Look back Sheila, at what your mother was trying to tell you."
"What is lost can be found if you return to the moment and see what she was trying to say to you."
"Nothing is ever lost, just forgotten."
"See the Whole of your time with her and you can find the Truth."
Her eyes watered and she only nodded.
I returned back to my job as a forklife driver.
I didn't want to be a writer.
I need to be a writer.
My intention is not to prove,
but to write my Truth,
It was reasonable that I fled from my wife, who I Spotted as one who would find 282k life insurance policy too tempting.
Most of my Truth has a foundation of phone records, creddit card bills, other things that make it clear, I am pretty reasonable guy.
Most of the Spotted Words are documented with my email correspondence from May 29, 2023- Septmenber 10, 2024. I kept their emails and will send them to any official parties that need verification.
I started emailing my wife after a cough heard from a hotel door she sent me alone. It was not up to par with her standards and I knew, my wife has a Wildeness within.
All I did was do my Best to see if I could match my best with her best.
So far, so good, but the Spotted are showing their resolve. I saw WF3 (Wife's Family/Friend 3) who owns a business as a private investigator at 5:15 AM, checking underneath the bathroom stalls. His phone should show that he was 1 hour away from his home, and why on eart is he in Audubon Planet Fitness, where I usually start my workouts at 5:30 AM?
Environment
Adapt to your surroundings
My surroundings has changed.
I need to write better so I can make it clear, the Wilderness has retruned, and the Spotted are being more forward. It feels like impatience.
On September 10 2023, after the extortion attempt, I tried to negotiate with my wife to tell her, I could see the pattern.
My wife was involved in trying to gain 282k life insurance policy, based on her actions, purchases, and phone records, and avoidence of the topics of June 6 and June 28. Emails show a pattern of reluctance of details, just vague statements.
What is not said is what is the pattern, avoidence means my wife wants to reply to the details, without ever providing them. Defensive style.
I saw coordination in the phone records my wife was sending and receiving.
The pack is large and can easily be found if one questions 2 of the Spotted.
Beta first with the extortion attempt, falsifying a police report, and also the first one to text me while I drove away on June 6th at 7:20 PM. I didn't see her at all that day, so how did she know when I drove off in less than a minute.
I tried to not make this public with my wife on September 10, willing to let bygone be bygones. I forgave.
Silence was her reply.
I don't ask twice, nor do I beg.
The common fields that the Spotted seem to gravitate towards,
Insurance.
There was a 282k life insurance policy in the month of June. I cancelled in July to try to persuade her that there was no need to continue to do anything rash. 5/18/2025 happeend, and so I had to adapt.
I have to speak the truth and record so even if they get silence, hoepfully somone will contact the Shields and just ask them some simple questions.
Below are some of the dances I had with the Spotted, that was simply good luck and good speed.
My Name is Mark DeSimone.
The event happened on June 6, and around June 28 of 23.
The Blue Shield of King of Prussia has the Title, along with the statements from both my wife and her youngest daughter.
It is a rare document, the Title, it has my wife's real name and not her many aliases. Alos it only has 1 word of mine, the rest is her feelings of what that one word meant, along with a hand delivered letter from a lawyer from a former employee.
They are suposed to exaggerate. I took that 1 word title down, with no content.
That is the Title, a title.
Life is stranger than fiction, I stay to the Truth when it comes to ramily.
good luck & good speed.
Luck
Luck is found if you can figure out how to avoid something from not happening again.
On 5/22/2025 I went to the gym, Planet Fitness in Audubon PA. This is 4 days from when I was threatened in a public place in King of Prussia. It was an early workout at 4:30 AM. There wwer only 5 or 6 regulars that I recognized.
I worked out for 40 minutes and when I went out of the bathroom stall I saw a man who looking underneath the bathroom stalls. 5:15 AM.
That wasn't what made me feel fear.
I didn't see his face since his head was turned and he walked toward the urinal. What caused me fear was he looked and acted exactly as my Wife's Family 3, who I worked for.
He works as a private investigator and he is excellent at his job.
I felt terror and walked quickly past before he could see me.
I drove calmly away, but I wondered, if it was him, his phone records would have a ping to a cell tower that was nearby.
There would be no reason for him to be there.
I admit I could be wrong, but I am recording breaks in pattern. That was a strange thing to see, someone who I instantly felt fear. I don't scare easily, since I am calm even in the situations down below.
Just my two cents, but if something strange happens to me, a record of that ping would show, my wife's family member, who work ins in insurance investigations, should not be at my gym, over an hour away.
I would give 80% chance it was him.
My pattern is to start my workout around 5 30 AM.
I had 40 minutes of time in a space instaead of immediate, so that is an improvement. But I have to avoid any of these strange encounters with my wife's family.
do what must
Adapt to your surroundings
5/18/2025
I was sitting by a bench in an upscale area, King of Prussia Town Center, and this man came from the road and walked directly towards me.
It wax a beeline to me and I wondered, hugh, this should be interesting.
I had my head phones on and was writing.
It was a nice and pleasant day, which was the reason why I was sleeping under my favorite tree just a few hours before this encounter happened.
This man was unpleasant.
He said, “Can I borrow your phone, I forgot it and need to message my girlfriend?”
He did not ask and seemed to expect a yes.
He seemed annoyed at me, as if I was causing him grief.
I looked at him and said, “No. I don’t let anyone in my phone.”
He increased his threatening manner and said, “You are telling me you are not giving me your phone? It is just a message.”
I said, “No. There are other people around you can ask.”
And then he unleashed how he felt about me, “If this wasn’t a public place I would kick the shit out of you....”
My mind wandered after his intro.
I just looked at him and started thinking, he reminded me of my wife when I said no and trised ot break up.
An escalation to try to get what you want. Beta also was recorded doing that on September 10, 2024.
My then girlfriend Alpha said,“If you think you can say no to me, you have no idea what I can do," with her fist clenched.
Spotted hate being told no and I just met one out of the blue, in probably the nicest area where the people surrounding me saved me from the threats this man was saying.
He seemed enraged that I told him no three times and wasn't scared.
He was very uncivil and the only thing that restrained him were those around that would not allow him to do what he threatened.
I looked at him puzzled and didn’t say anything.
I didn’t respond and just let him vent as he said other things I forgot, and then he turned around and walked into the bar.
I grabbed my stuff and walked away thinking,
"What are the chances of me changing my phone number an hour ago, and a stranger asking to use my phone?"
Chance
Any break in pattern is important
5/18/2025
The law of probablity says, I did the right thing changing my phone number.
My surroundings has changed and I need to adapt.
I need to make sure I remain in public places for a little bit longer.
Privacy is a luxury I can’t afford.
Hopefully soon, since I am a pretty private guy.
The season has changed where the need to write better has increased.
Time is the most precious resource, and that encounter reminded me, every moment counts to try to find the Best within.
I passed the Test and was not angry or felt fear, just a little hurt that another human being would feel that strongly, to want to hurt me if the public was not there to stop a Spotted who had ill intent.
Don’t know, do care.
If I see him again, I will try to remember him to avoid.
That guy had red original pride.
Might is Right.
I looked into his eyes and saw sheer violence that wanted to explode since I said no.
It felt personal and I was just silent as I let him say how he felt.
I didn’t correct him nor challenge his right to say that to me.
Better to play it safe and keep an eye out for any more strange things.
Prior to this encounter I was sleeping under a tree and I heard a voice.
A Break in the Pattern.
I was in a secluded area off any path.
It was a woman pointing something out to two male companions.
I just grabbed my things and started packing to leave.
Then I looked up and the woman and two men were sitting on the park bench, near the path.
I gathered the rest of my things and walked towards my car.
I noticed that now there was only a young man and the woman now sitting by the bench, the third man was missing.
Nothing of note, but my mind started recording since this was an odd thing happening when I made a left and drove down the road.
A car, with tinted windows was driving very slowly behind me.
He was far back and driving as if he didn’t want to be noticed.
I noticed.
I decided to go another route and make a left turn and before I knew it, that car was on my tail.
The distance to catch up meant the car sped up.
Adapting to my surroundings, I made a left at the next light and slowly drove to let the car pass.
The driver had no other choice to drive past me,
Nissan with tinted windows, couldn’t remember license plate. I don’t memorize.
Odd day so far.
I decided to put my phone on airplane mode and drove to a different location. I would later find out that airplane mode doesn't stop being tracked.
I changed my phone number and then drove to another place.
I sensed something was wrong when I encountered my first aggressive person in a long time.
Extortion
Gratiude strengthens, entitlement weakens
9/7/2024 and 9/10/2024 - My Birthday
On Sat, Sep 7, 2024 at 11:37 AM, My wife's youngest daughter requested 10 for her student loans.
She is the one that called the Blue Shield for an event on June 28th or so, where I was taken to a hospital, and remained for 12 days, based solely on her word.
How the police were alerted, I am not sure.
There is an email in the Metronome where I state what I was told, which was not disputed by my wife, of how her daughter called her bilogical father, who somehow alerted the Blue Sheld that believed her.
Inidrect is their style and mine is the opposite. Time is precious for me, and I can't always rely on luck and speed. I have to sometimes hope that a firend will stop them, and see that I write the Truth.
What I do know is this young daughte, 24 at the time, texted my family that I was kidnapping her mother.
Based on her involvement with that day, a threat to report me to the police was an action that could do harm, when viewed against my words I documented.
She threated twice for court, and reported me to the police.
It was in regards to trying to extort more money after I had given her mother weekly payments.
She is the key witness to June 28, and my reply to her Septemeber 7 email, on September 10, was my account of what happened.
My wife refused to let me leave and invaded my space, an indirect way to impose your her will and control.
But I will get to that after the extortion of her youngest daughter that was recorcded.
Sat, Sep 7, 2024 at 11:37 AM, Youngest daughter asked for 10k for her student loan in an official format, with no recgonition of me being a family member. The letter was similar to a debt collector with expectation for me to give her the money she asked for.
Tue, Sep 10, 2024 5:35 PM - I tell her no due to 125k bankruptcy and payment of 6 months of half my payI gave my wife. I give my sworn testament of my account of June 28 date, along with the suffering I experience knowing she lied to the police. I advise her to not respond since I knew what she was going to do. She was going to threaten to get her money.
Tue, September 10, 2024 5:46:51 PM - My wife's youngest daughter replies in 8 words, within 11 minutes, and threaten to take me to court for her own student loans. Shows pattern of escalating and the extortion begins.
Tue, Sep 10, 2024 at 5:52 PM - I attempt to de-escalate and advise she didn't read my account, of which I dispute of June 28. She or her mother have never explained what they said to the Blue Shields or to the doctor who made the decision to believe my wife.
Tue, Sep 10, 2024 at 5:57 PM - She threaten court a second time, and refuses to read my account of June 28th, the key witness, and says she doesn't have time to real what happened. She also admitted that I agreed to repayment, which I did not. This is the first time hearing about this agreement made without my knowledge. Perhaps they used my Name again, who knows but them.
Tuesday, September 10, 2024 at 6:06 PM - I tell her with 1 word, understood. I was thinking of how to respond.
Tue, Sep 10, 2024 at 6:13 PM - I advise a threatening step-daughter that I tried to give every opportunity to not have her keep words said to prove that she was not a credible witness to the June 28 2023.
Tue, Sep 10, 2024 at 6:30 PM - The key witness to June 28 reports police on me, similar to what she did on that day. Repeating what she did and completed the extortion. A call to the police previously was harm done, and she did it again, with an email thread that stated my account, along with the suffering it caused.
Tue, Sep 10, 6:31 PM On Tue, Sep 10, 2024 - She states I can post since she does not think she did anything wrong.
This event was documented and I have the correspondence stored if Blue Shield wants to validate, though I think it would be better if they ask them to provide them first, along with questions regarding how this is showing concern and needing protection from me. I don't ever threat, the Spotted shows the pattern of doing this.
Liars
Liars are most offended when you speak the Truth.
6/28/23 or so, not sure exact date
The September 10 2024 reply at 5:35 PM, to my wife's daughters who asked for 10k, has this detail of what happened.
Their account is silent and only the story said verbally to the two Shields of the community.
I went to see my wife to find out the truth of June 6. I made a mistake.
I asked for a talk to see if she was willing to tell me. The entire Spotted family were there, but the eldest I did not see.
The youngest daughter said, "I am not comfortable you taking my Mother for a drive."
As soon as she said that I immediately said that I would respect it.
I could sense that I was not safe in this environment as soon as I saw my wife demand for a talk in the car.
I immediately went to leave.
It was her mother who demanded that I still take her.
She refused to let me go without her, invading the space by sitting in the car and waiting.
I could not leave by force since her words against me was already signed.
Her word against me had strength, and I knew then, I was not going to get an answer and get punished for daring to ask a simple thing.
Why?
The youngest daughter was there as we did this dance where I asked her to let me go, and my wife would not let me escape her space, knowing that the police would be called.
I saw the youngest daughter just watch and did not help me as I tried to leave, to tell her mother, to let me go.
I was resigned to have to pay the price for being in my wife's space and made the most out of it.
I drove my wife, unwilliingly and went a short distance to ask her some questions, since I knew this was the last time I would ever be in her space.
There is a request for her to see me in the Metronome. I saw it and I felt fear. My wife felt comfortable to ask to see if I was in the neighborhood, and I knew, she thinks I forget.
As soon as I pulled out of the parking lot, she said, "I think my daughter called the cops on you."
I ignored that remark and noticed she did not bring her phone, to explain what was a mild ride of no outbursts or argument.
My wife carries her phone everywhere and she would use this break in pattern to ask me for something, which I said no, similar to the man on 5/18/24, who obviously is part of the Pack of the Spotted.
I asked her, why did you spend 6k in February and 5k in May?
I asked why questions, since I was going to challenge her reason for what she did.
My wife denied it.
I told her I have the credit card receipt.
She admitted and had no answer.
She doesn't answer questiosn that will get her in trouble.
I thne asked he why she washed the car before she dropped it off.
She denied it.
I said I have the credit card receipt and you were the only that uses that card and I was hiding from her.
She admitted, "It was dirty."
When I drove out of the parking lot on June 6, 2023, a man was dumping dirt on the front windshield.
The back was already covered with dirt. The car was moved a football field away. A lot of details with that day.
That answer was the answer I needed to not doubt my wife was guilty.
A small detail that means more.
My wife's Prime Rule is that she only does thingsto benefit her. The only benefit to washing my car, along with wipes left, would be the clean up any evidence of my story.
She just admitted it without even thinking it was an improtant detail.
After that I did not have any further questions.
It was my wife's turn to do what would only benefit her.
She said, "This idea that is was over insurane money, how much was it?"
I said, "282k"
She said, "It was not for..." and then she got the number wrong, after I just told her what the amount was.
She reiterated, "I would never do that for, how much was it?"
I was amused.
My wife is very good with numbers, she was acting like the number was so riducuols that she couln't recall.
The Metronome shows that money is her main reward she pursues.
She only became co-opertative after the payments started, and would ask for more with indirect hints.
I sked her to see if she would allow me to drop her off a little farther from the apartment.
She refused.
My wife demanded to be dropped off in front of her apartment. I accepted the price for the answer that I would have no doubt, she did it.
I don't care if it can't be proven, she was my best friend and she deserved the benefit of the doubt, and that was it.
She washed the car to cover up what she attempted on June 6.
As I dropped her off she said, "Let me text my daughhter that I am here."
Phone is always a focus with the Spotted, and they get frustrated when I don't give out my new number.
I told her no, and that she was here.
She looked disappinted but she accepted that I wasn't going to give her my phone to get my new numbrer.
I forgave the youngest daughter for her false truths said to Blue Shield, and same for my wife.
One judges Self and that is it.
I moved on.
The daughter who threatens and attempted to extort a man who she felt was a threat does not make sense.
There was no fear as she threatened court and police.
The reason she behaved like this is because she knows I have never threatened or ever retaliated.
All I do it learn from it and write the Truth as best I can.
Spotted Focus
What we focus on shows what is importation, jsut as imporatn are the things we do not say.
6/7/23-6/11/23
When I returned after hiding from my wife, one of the first things she focused on was the phone.
Prime Rule to my wife is, she will only offer help if it beneifts her.
Sun, Jun 11, 2023 at 11:59 AM - Initates offer to send old phone with old phone number
Two hours later she decides to take back that strange rewquest
Sun, Jun 11, 2023 at 2:53 PM - She changes mind about mailing replacement phone.
Sunday, Jun 11, 2023 4:34 PM - Gives update on her grandson who I witnessed her abuse 5 days prior
While I was hiding from her, without any prompts, my wife states emphatically that what was happening was not over the 282k life insurance policy.
Wed, Jun 7, 2023 at 10:44 AM - Unpromted focus on Life Insurance policy of 282k, and that was not what happened on June 6, 2023. She states that I have no mental issues and vague references of stress and anxiety. Stress was transferred from my wife to husband, as stated by a licensed therapist.
I was stressed when I wrote this statement. I thought the debt was only 60k, but it turned out to be 125k. I was not aware how deep in debt we were, only my wife would have knowledge, since she used the credit cards in my name.
Wed, Jun 7, 2023 at 6:43 AM - Proof I did not know how much debt, guessed 60k was 125k. I made two mistakes with what I thought she was trying to do. I was stressed since I saw that my wife was willing to harm me for an insurance policy she requested I take. I wanted to take the free one from work and she said, "You can never have too much insruance."
No response was given, nor any admitting to why the debt was so large. Absent is any mention of the reason for such a high debt. With email being the sole way I communicated with my wife, there is lack of detail in discussing the mental concern, finacncail aspect, or the dates of June 28 or June 6, even when it is mentioned by me.
The lack of detail is the pattern, since the answer to Why is not important enough to give an Answer to the person they deemed needed help.
Answer questions about those days would have helped, but I accepted they would won't sayto me, but perhaps someone else that doesn't allow her to accept silence to things they should volunteer an answer, so there isn't any misunderstandings.
She did it as plainly can be seen.
Survive
do what must
6/6/23 7:20 PM
I will try to tell this story without too many boring with details, though the times of calls will be unavoidable. The call logs show a pattern of coordination and unconcern, and it also reveals the Spotted that was larger than I thought.
The first thing I did when I returned from hiding was dowload the call logs of myself, my wife, and the youngest daughter. It can prove what I say is true, and what I found from this date was involvement of Wifes BF EJ, Wife's BF JW, who I saw while I was being chased, and the youngest daughter.
She was the first text I got when I was dirving from the apartment. I didn't see her in the aparment, but she somehow knew I was being chased and timestamped the moment I leftt. 7:20 PM, a minute from when I got into a car that was moved.
My wife is the only one that has the extra keys to my car, in a statment in the mentronome. She drove it back to my family's house, washed, which she admitted on June 28.
Not try9ing to prove, excpet I am using the phone records of that day of both myself, my wife, and the youngest daughter
The structure of this account is sound, and not make belief.
I have data that confirms certain aspects when it comes to phone records, and the coordination from them.
This is my least favorite type of writing, tryingto prove.
From the Time of 3:52 PM to 6:52 PM, she speak to 3 firends. and her mother. Her mother was most likely invovled since she gave me the address to the bare parking lot in North Philly and waited with her Aunt, late for over 20 minutes to a place they gave me an address.
At 7:02 PM a 1 minute conversation to confirm I was home. Her two daughtedrs were home, but I didn't see her youngest all day. I saw the eldest sitting on the couch, with her view directly where I walked o little before 7:18 PM.
At 7:03 PM she has a 4 minute convesation with her youngest daughter who I did not see.
At 7:07 PM she has an incoming call from her Best friend, who has a known drug dealer as her boyfriend, and most likely invovled. It was a 13 minute call, but I left prior so most likely her phone was on the whole time so others can hear when I leave.
From that time my wife offered to give me a gift card to take a drive by myself. This was a break in pattern. She then offeremed me water that was opened. I tested her intent and offered it to the youngest grandson to see what she would do.
She snatched it and said it wsa for me only.
I did not agreed to leave. And so she did the unforgivable. She kneed her grandons Eli in the head against the door. Similar to how her eldest daughter did twice with the door.
I was shocked.
Her grandson was crying with his hands covering his head. It was so sad to see my wife become like this. She felt this would get me to leave, which it did, but not before I said, "Don't do that Eli"
With a challenging look she said, "What, I didn't mean to do that."
I responded by saying, "I know what you did, don't do that to him again."
She smiled, since she knew I was goign to leave. She went to Church, or so that is what she told the police and enyaone else that asked for her alibi.
I thought about it, and thought, I need to go faster then expected.
Within 5 minutes, while my wife is still talking to Best Friend 2, I grabeed my bags and booked.
I saw the eldest sitting on the couch as if she ws the lookout.
I wwalked outside and saw the car was moved.
I looked and saw it was moved a football field, near the leasing office.
As I walked I saw a man dumpting dirt on the front windshield.
He looked shocked that I was there so soon.
I calmly enterted my car and drove ovv slowly, with windshipedl wipers tyring to clear the dfirt he jsut dumped on. The man got in the passanger side and I knew I was beeing chased, most likely by those 3 firneds, since I can say I saw Bestfriend 2 while I wsa on the road later.
As I was making a left, a text came from the youngest daughter making vague references on how much she c ared about me and plausiblity that I was having a mental brakdown.
I didn't read it since I wsa being chased.
I looked int he back seat and it was full of boxes perhaps for someone to hide back there and just, don't know, don't care.
The exact time the car chase started was 7:20 PM. The youngest daughter time stamped it wit her text.
AT 7:03 PM My wife has a 4 minute conversation with her youngest daughter, who I did not see that day. I don’t think she was in the apartment.
At 7:07 PM she has an incoming call with Best Friend 2, who has a known drug dealer for 13 minutes. What is odd about that time, is that within that time frame is when when I saw my wife, and it ended exactly when I was driving off the parking lot.
I know this since the youngest daughter, who I did not see, was the first person who texted me when I made a left out of the parking lot.
Those two were involved. I saw Best Friend 1 during the drive and most likely the 2 other friends may be one of the other drivers. The only car I know for certain was a black Tesla. I pulled into a Turnpike where they record license plate and within the times of 7:30 Pm to 8:15 PM I am sure you can find the license plates of those parties. Definitely the Black Tesla.
The coordination shows, my youngest daughter, saw me drive off. She is the best person to question exactly what she saw, since a vague reference won’t cut it. She has to explain the 7:20 PM knowledge of the exact time I pulled awy. Along with Best Friend 2 incoming call ending at that same exact time.
At 7: 25 PM , 7:43 PM, 7:44 PM ,9: 52 PM 1-2 minute conversations. No text after the initial 7:20 PM text to me of vague concern.
Best Friend 1, who I saw on the road, had a 4 minute conversation at 7:23 PM while I was being chased. Most likely you will find a car that is connected to her off the turnpike exit I went off on purpose. Not sure if they keep a record of over 2 years, but hopefully they do.
Only 1 call for Best Friend 2, the 13 minute call while my wife abused her grandson in front of me to make me leave. A call ending the exact time I left.
At 8:40 PM – 11:17 4 texts between an insurance agent, of a name I don’t know. Could be a friend, not sure. His profile states he does insurance is all I know. On the day I am having a supposed breakdown.
In between all of that, she calls me intermittently with all this juggling of the other players.
The concern is damage control in my opinion, but what do I know. The blue Shield never questioned me and my wife placed the Title to make me not credible.
The calls are real. It shows coordination.
I had my family member call the police because I could not get these cars off my tail and I didn’t want to come to a family members house, nor be in a dead end. I needed GPS to find a way to never get in the space.
My wife washed the car, she admitted it. IT was an important detail. I couldn’t see clearly the cars, only the black tesla, and the Best Friend 1.
Luck
I have always been Lucky
5/26/2023 - First Attempt
